October 11, 2013

Worn

I've been struggling a lot the last few days.  I feel so down but I couldn't really put my finger on what it was exactly.  Aaron keeps asking me what's wrong but I just can't put it into words.  Because I'm not even 100% sure what's wrong.

As I was driving home from work today I heard a song on a Christian station that I listen to.  This song put into words everything that I've been feeling.  As I listened I sobbed, and then sobbed and prayed.  My faith is shaken.  And though we still haven't gotten pregnant and that is heartbreaking in itself for both of us, I think that this is what has had me so down lately.  Because I feel like this is our test and I'm failing. Failing because I'm losing my faith.  I'm just so worn and wish I could just feel a little comfort and to know that there will be an end to all of our struggles.



I’m Tired I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn
So, heaven come and flood my eyes

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause all that’s dead inside will be reborn

Though I’m worn
Yeah I’m worn

"Worn" by Tenth Avenue North



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