I've been struggling a lot the last few days. I feel so down but I couldn't really put my finger on what it was exactly. Aaron keeps asking me what's wrong but I just can't put it into words. Because I'm not even 100% sure what's wrong.
As I was driving home from work today I heard a song on a Christian station that I listen to. This song put into words everything that I've been feeling. As I listened I sobbed, and then sobbed and prayed. My faith is shaken. And though we still haven't gotten pregnant and that is heartbreaking in itself for both of us, I think that this is what has had me so down lately. Because I feel like this is our test and I'm failing. Failing because I'm losing my faith. I'm just so worn and wish I could just feel a little comfort and to know that there will be an end to all of our struggles.